Right now in this very moment I feel like the world is moving around me and I have no place.
I am having difficulties trying to find a person who feels the same way I feel, but not everyone has the same thoughts and ideas as me. Lately all I want to do is be lazy, that being laying in bed and not wanting to move. Watching a show or reading on my Nook. I feel a grog coming back, it's really hurting my productivity and strength. I don't want to ask for help from anyone because I am one of those people who think they can do everything by themselves. That's not always the case though, I tend to ask for to much when I do need the help. I have been using music as a coping mechanism, mainly to ease anxiety. Basically to melt off the stress, caused by the anxiety. Since I have been taking new medication for a different side of my health, everything seems to be generally effected. I just want to be calm and relaxed to be able to concentrate on what's really important. Such as completely my book at a certain time, school and the work given, walking every morning, relationships. I really need to work on my productivity as well, easier said then done. Why is that? You may ask this in your head, well, being me I have a lot going on my head 24/7, and for some reason when I want to do something that is needed, I get distracted very easily by something else.
Reading goes to sleeping.
Watching a show goes to sleeping.
Writing something goes to me trying to find a song on YouTube, then suddenly finding a video I want to watch from a creator.
Or writing goes to me listening to the lyrics of the song I am hearing.
I like the thought of how music has the power to change your mood very easy.
Now, I'm just tired, physically.
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