Something is in the atmosphere and it's causing a conflicted academic. I think all the decisions as of late have been miscalculated and I was upset for the wrong reasons. Of course, it is very easy to get in trouble for something you're not supposed to do. But it's your decisions and you will eventually learn from them. Which here is my decision, I have decided to open back up to the thought of love. I want to see potential in that overused word. With Bradon, I really want to find more in liking someone. I want to adventure with my ideas and open the world for what it is, not worrying all the time. I'm getting older now and I thinks it's time to bring in new ideas and adventures. Which honestly, with the conversation with Bradon about traveling. I couldn't have any other person to do it with but him. He seems passionate about the things he does. Maybe that's what I need in a person, passion, openness, outgoing, and very excited to see the world another person does. Could this be the start of something amazing? I pray, it is. Lord knows I need it. Tonight I am going to try really hard to have a joyful spirit at work, even considering that tomorrow is Halloween and I have nothing for a costume.
Then I am going to come home and take a walk, something I need to start doing to clear my conflicted thoughts and anger. Where was the anger coming from? I don't know, I really need to get out of my own head and living life for the now, and get something from it. Before it completely eats me alive.
But isn't getting into my own head something I have trying to receive for years?
I have close-minded for years and I needed to open up. I noticed my closeness when I started taking a certain class.
I'm open-minded now.
Time to shine.
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