The start of this morning went pretty smoothly, I didn't get up at five am like I should have. But I think I should be able to lose weight if I just don't eat that much. I need to think that food is given for a prize more than it's mine and I can eat it whenever I want. Because when I eat I think of all the money that I've wasted not only from restaurants but from the store. I have eaten so much for the past couple days and I shouldn't have. I think I need to balance things. But sometimes I can't seem to wrap my mind around that concept. I have church tonight and I haven't decided if I wanted to take some medicine before I go. But at the same time, I don't want to. Because it'll make me go all over the place. I don't understand why people have to be so repulsive. There is a that sits with us all the time and he acts like an idiot.
I feel there is a lock on me and I don't know how to get it off, I don't have a key. Do I need to find something? Faith? Love? Acceptance? But what for? All of my friends are oddballs, I fit in just fine.
I need to get my head out of the water though.
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