A letter for T

Dear T,
I want this letter to appeal to you in a way that only I can really explain in my writing. There are many things I want to tell you and it's really hard to express myself when I am face to face with another person. Emotions don't really come out right unless of course, they're crazy ones and I'm visibly upset. That's one of the reasons why I am writing this to you. You for some reason have stuck around for a couple years and you haven't really left pursue. But you have stopped talking to me for a couple times and I have done the same. Because honestly I am a mess and I'm very glad you've been here for me since. You're the only friend that has stuck around for me. We really don't have to show any effort towards each other when we hang out at school or after church. To me, I just feel like time has gone by so fast. I mean look at us, seniors in high school, I'm coming up on my last semester and you're one semester in. For some reason I can actually talk to in in person when we have our night talks in your car, sometimes I repeat myself. I can't really tell you what's wrong, all I need is reassurance that everything will be okay. (That's a tip for you.) I honestly value our friendship and all the time we get to hang out together. You've said before that you enjoyed hearing that. You know the reason for why I like hanging out with you and you enjoy that answer as well. I just really appreciate you being in my life and helping me with everything. I want this friendship to last, for some reason this is the only real one I have as of now. I also want you to know if you need anything, just let me know, I am here for you whenever you need me. These last couple years have been hell for me, none of it was your fault. The timing was horrible and problems were rising for me when I had that break from you. I had to find time for me, but at the time all I found was nothing, I was lonely watching you and your friends talk. But something inside kept telling me to stay away, don't ask. Because honestly, I have no idea. This letter is to basically let you know how important to me, I just wanted you to know. Considering I'm dealing with fall out from everything happening right now. Yes, I can be vague about it, because you already know what I am talking about. But yeah, here you go.