"Being free but not really"

So far in life, I have found some meaning to the idea of 'being free but not really" I took hold of my life and did what I thought was the right thing to settle the finances. By taking a job at a place I didn't want to go back to. Then in the process of always being constantly stressed and alert. I decided to see if I hold all this up for awhile to make enough money. In my defense, it was emotionally, mentally, and physically exhausting. At most times I would be doing all the jobs at once while everyone decided to goof off. Then one day I got an injury to my foot and I couldn't walk very well. So, I called in two days at Hy-vee and then quit the fast food one immediately the next morning before my shift. I really didn't want to deliver the bad news in person. It was embarrassing, especially having to explain how you hurt yourself. Slipping the shower and grating your foot on the metal drain piece; because the plastic mat was trying to kill you. I don't really understand how it happened but it did and it hurt, badly. This whole time the guy that I thought hurt me so bad was actually trying to save me and I was blind to see that. Then I had to break someone's heart to fix mine. "I expected it." Was a surprising text, because I didn't. But I'm glad I made that choice. Now my life is very slowly falling into place I just have to be patient and try to be more healthy. Most importantly, I have a loving boyfriend that I cherish so much and will try my best to be everything that he needs.