Coming undone

I have quit completely, I ended it yesterday at 4pm. I hope I can keep myself together during this time. I really need all the support I can right now, because I know the side affects are going to cause a major conflict with my life and social skills. I am okay as of right now, feeling icky. I was kind of restless last night. I kept waking up uncomfortable and would shift during the night. I don't know why it's causing such an issue. I didn't know that was a piece of the aftermath, I was taking it for a couple months, so it makes sense. I didn't realize how long I've been doing it. Good thing I didn't get caught this time. I'm not going to take it again, unless I really need a coping mechanism and even then that won't even be a real thought until I get through these three months. I would really enjoy the company of my good friend, T. Hopefully he and I can hang out after school today. It's going to be a long day until 4pm. I tell ya, being at home is the most boring thing, there isn't really much to do. Well, to my mother there is. You know moms and their cleaning habits. Even then I will probably do the same when I get older. But I will make sure my child is older than eighteen when I'm in my forties.