Under the stars

There was nothing at this time that I could do to understand why everything happened at once. No one could understand where I was not even me.Hiding in the cold, dark, forest surrounded by nothing but my unstable thoughts. The thoughts that could drown my happiness in the night. The day you left me there in the park, under the moon, under the stars, we gazed on. I never knew the cause of the pain you were feeling and you wouldn’t tell me. You told me that all that you felt was nothing compared to our love. But why did you leave? I knew I could take it. But instead in front of the bright holy moon, I was taken instead.

 Now in my head, I could sense the stars rotating around my cracked skull. My body was laid upon the ground. But I couldn’t see, darkness flooded my sight. For the loss of blood was causing my unconsciousness. I could feel the roughness of the rock that I was laying upon. Unable to move I open my eyes for the second and last time for the night. To see the lifeless corpse swaying in front of my face. I could feel my spirit leaving my body.

  I didn’t have the will to speak, but enough to stand. Smoke filled my lungs and I coughed. The smell of cheap cologne and rain infested air. I always remembered the smell because David and I used to stand in the rain and enjoy the pleasant sight of nature at its finest. I see David in front of the entrance of the forest. I walk out to see the water fountain at the end of the park. He gives me a smile of regret and opened his arms to invite me in. I run to him and jump into his arms. Warmth ran through my body for once, and now I can finally feel something. I look into his eyes and stare. “Does this mean you’ll let me in?” He pushes hair from my face to behind my ear, staring at my lips. “I made a mistake of not letting you in. I’m sorry.” I smile and take a free breath. “You never have to be sorry, just don’t push me away.” He frowns and lays his head on my shoulder “Let me be there for you, be there for me.” I hear his sniffing on my shoulder and scuffled voice. “I’m sorry.” He lays his head up from my shoulder, his glistening eyes meet mine. “I love you.” Our smiles couldn’t shine any brighter. Thunder rolls a crossed in the sky and that wasn’t enough to unlock our gaze. We slowly met in a kiss, I wrap my arms behind his neck. When we released I stared once again into the eyes of an angel and smiled. “I love you too.”

  I smiled and grabbed his hand, howling wind filling our ears. We walked down the sidewalk towards the fountain. Nothing could affect the happiness in the world we were standing on. When there was noise, footsteps behind us. The worst fear that could ever fill me unforeseen shadows.He could see the fear on my face. “What’s wrong?” I ignored his question as I could see a shadow forming in front of us as of a memory was coming back. I could hear high-pitched screaming, it sounded the same as when I was a child. I let go of his hand and covered my ears. His face read confusion, of trying to find an answer to an unknown question.  Then I recognized the memory. Of the terrifying time where I couldn’t ever find clarity from, no matter how much I try to cope. A body laid before me as it was a stone. I started to hyperventilate, falling to my knees, I screamed. “Mom!” I covered my head as I could hear the screaming getting louder! David was frozen still as the shadow brought back the sight of his demons that tried to force his hand to a blade. He shooed away the smoke from his memory forcefully. Trying to pick me up from behind, from the ground. I refused to hold out my arms and legs trying to comfort an unforeseen memory that wasn’t even there. He held me to his chest holding me tight so I could stop shaking and find comfort again. “What was that?” He said. She didn't speak she was trying to find her normality to ease her sanity. “What is happening?” He led me to the bench near a light pole. The air didn’t feel any less dense than before. He held me close and we sat in silence for less than a minute. He groaned as if he was in pain. “Are you ok-” Before I could finish my question I looked at his neck and saw a bruise wrapping around. He began to cough like he was gasping for air. “Maybe we need to go back to the forest.” He stood up and massaged the pain. I stood with him unable to look away from the bruise. He grabbed my hand and pulled me along until I went the pace he was going. The air grew denser as we moved closer to the entrance. I stood close to him holding his hand tight as we entered. My head began to hurt like a splitting headache was forming. I felt dizzy for a second and almost collapsed, but luckily he caught me. “Come on, you’ll be okay.” He said, wrapping my arm around the back of his neck. Keeping me steady, the headache went slightly to the point where I didn’t need to be carried. I held onto his arm as we walked forward. We stopped and I could feel my body grow cold, I couldn’t move. As I saw his body hanging directly above the ground, lifeless, and pale. I snapped out of it and when I did I fell to my knees and screamed. Uncontrollable shaking and crying were the only things I could do. He stood before himself swaying side to side and looked as though he had witnessed a murder. “I know what happened.” He said in a whisper as he walked behind a tree to see my pale unconscious body. Blood flowing from my head down to my neck. I stood still shaking putting my face into my sweater sleeves. I walked behind him to see what had happened. I felt my stomach twist. “W-we’re dead?” His eyes couldn’t leave my body. “I need to tell you something.” He looked me in my eyes and I could tell by the way they were glistening he was upset. “What is it?” A tear fell from his eye as he spoke. “I died here because I found you here like this. I shouldn’t have left you there. I know I shouldn't have.” His voice began to shake and my eyes watered up and tears fell from my eyes to my sweater. “I always loved you, I just didn’t want to lay my burdens on your shoulders. You have enough to deal with an-”

“You should’ve told me. You were never going to be a burden because I love you.” My voice shook as I laid my hand on his arm. He looked at me and smiled. “At least we’ll be together forever.”