The now

I am trying to get back into the norm, but right now is not the best time to even attempt it. I miss him very much. I really hope I can see him soon, he is the best thing to have ever happened to me. I could write you a whole story on how he makes me so happy. There's nothing more amazing than a man who is always there for you. It's just right now and scheduling is rough. He's been working a lot because he wants to save money for things he has been wanting. He said a long time ago he wanted to get a job and start a life together. I am all for that, he makes me happy every second I see him. When I look at him I can honestly say I have seen the future and it's in him.
Right now, moving into my own place is weird. Spent a bunch of money I just barely have. I'll make it here, I just need to adapt to this life and kick this habit. So much before my next birthday. Why is time going by so fast? I don't get how days are actually flying by and I am left with loneliness. God only knows how much I need Jacob here with me right now. It feels like weeks and yet. I do believe it has been less, I am a complete mess right now. I am still working at my same job and everything is good. I just want to get into management. But for now, I need to start looking out for myself and getting money in.  Saving and moving forward. I need to retake my test and try and pass. I know I can do it, I just need to push myself.