Paranoid

Sitting here listening to a beat.
Something more than just vivid thoughts.
Consequences roaming but don't really matter.
I can't seem to find a solution.
But yet it still goes.
It'll catch up and I am pretty sure it will be consequential.
At the same time, everything is okay.
I'm struggling to find a real answer.
I am conflicted on what everyone else wants and what I want.
How can you be sure what will happen?
Paranoia is very much related to anxiety and honestly, I never knew I would its ugly side.
My love, that sits at home waiting for next moment that shares us both.
Diligently trying to mask this pain.
Sounding like a mission to beyond the limit.
I can't seem to let it give.
I know it won't cause a scene as long as I don't bleed.