Mental health: Day one.

I am eighteen and I am confused.
At this age everyone told me this set of confusion would happen, but you know what?
I was so worked up for just turning eighteen I forgot about how my mental health would handle it.
In this case, I have anxiety all the time for no reason what so ever. But that's just how my life goes.
As of this moment, the time being 10:32 p.m, September 19th, 2017.
I am currently thinking on how my life is going to be like when I leave for a Christian Bible college.
Yes, a Bible college.
I am conflicted of wanting to go and not wanting to go.
Am I nervous? Very much, yes. But at the same time it's the only college I can go to without having a major problem dealing with my poor ACT score. Unfortunately that test made my chances for other colleges very slim to none.
I don't like how colleges base your general intelligence on a test you have to take a good portion of the day. Maybe if it wasn't timed so strictly maybe more people would get better scores. That's just me rambling.
I think there are many forms of intelligence, but there is a lot of information regarding that. But being the time it is, I am half awake.
Also the college I am going to is out of town and for me that means I have to go find another job.
I really like the job I have now, I work as a cashier at a very popular grocery store. I honestly don't want to leave it. But if I have to leave, I may have to.

Him

There was this guy I hung out with for the first time yesterday, he was so nice and genuine. I have said it multiple times before that other guys I've met are different, but this man has found something in me I can't describe. I'm overly talkative about it, like Aladdin describing Jasmine. I blush every time. He just brings happiness for me, it's very unbelievable. But now he is dealing with the hardness of losing his first girlfriend of two years. He had told me the night after we hung out that he talked to her and it was very difficult. But he won't let me get close yet, but that's okay. I understand more clearly, he still likes her, I wouldn't say love because I don't know that.
  I feel as though I am being ignorant because he is hurting and I am thinking over a lot of scenarios between him and I. He is generally perfect in ways that I don't understand, hard to think of knowing he is in a funk about his ex. But right now I am thinking that leaving him alone for a couple days will help us both. I've become slightly attached and I need to let go, not because I don't want to like him. I don't want to be attached to him right now, it's not a good time. It won't be for awhile I think, giving him time will help him heal. Because I remember when I was hurting really bad, I just wanted to be left alone and cry it out. I am unaware if he is crying it out or not, but if he is I want him to feel like someone is there for him. Not just his roommates, but someone he can trust more and be close with. I won't take advantage of this situation.