I haven't been writing because school is not only taking all my time, but I haven't got in touch with my emotions quite yet. Can't really write anything when you don't know.
Mainly I'm trying to organize an invisible filing cabinet in the back of my mind.
Sorting through things and deciding things for myself.
Even though life is hectic right now, all I need to do right now is figure out what I'm feeling and figure it out.
I had this image in my mind that popped up. It's like an overloaded filing cabinet that is overfilled and the papers are flying everywhere.
At least it's not giving me paper cuts I can't handle.
When I try to talk to someone about what I'm feeling not only do I forgot what was important.
I tried talking to a close friend of mine the other night, I was so tired and I couldn't get the right things out and I feel like I embarrassed myself.
He doesn't know everything and I should have had spat it out, but I didn't have it ready in my mind in order to tell him,
But I feel like it doesn't matter what I say, and hear. No one is going to understand what's happening and honestly, I don't even know what's happening.
Nothing is happening, nothing of high importance.
That's a lie and I know it. But I can't pick it out.
Resort to step one: Figuring out the problem.
Found it.
I have strayed again.
This is an overused saying but, I need Jesus.
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