Filing Cabinet Filled With The Wrong Pages

I haven't been writing because school is not only taking all my time, but I haven't got in touch with my emotions quite yet. Can't really write anything when you don't know.
Mainly I'm trying to organize an invisible filing cabinet in the back of my mind.
Sorting through things and deciding things for myself.
 Even though life is hectic right now, all I need to do right now is figure out what I'm feeling and figure it out.
 I had this image in my mind that popped up. It's like an overloaded filing cabinet that is overfilled and the papers are flying everywhere.
 At least it's not giving me paper cuts I can't handle.
When I try to talk to someone about what I'm feeling not only do I forgot what was important.
I tried talking to a close friend of mine the other night, I was so tired and I couldn't get the right things out and I feel like I embarrassed myself.
He doesn't know everything and I should have had spat it out, but I didn't have  it ready in my mind in order to tell him,
 But I feel like it doesn't matter what I say, and hear. No one is going to understand what's happening and honestly, I don't even know what's happening.
Nothing is happening, nothing of high importance.
 That's a lie and I know it. But I can't pick it out.
Resort to step one: Figuring out the problem.
Found it.
I have strayed again.
This is an overused saying but, I need Jesus.

Days

Well, hello again.
Nothing has made its way into the folder of importance in my life. 
But the slight annoyance of the bandage on my middle finger, making it kind of difficult to type.
For some reason this week has been crucial and I'm happy it's almost over. 
I feel so drowsy to the point I don't even want to get out of bed anymore. 
But yet I still do, I still push, but give only a slight effort in getting ready. 
Everything in complicated in the social/dating scene.
Again, barely any effort. 
For some reason, I can't really feel anything when it comes to liking someone. 
Taking a break.
I don't really need to be with someone because I hear all this talk about useless it is to be in a relationship in high school.
But yet I still haven't had that full conversation about it yet.
I feel kind of miserable for some reasons unknown. I can't place a reason.
But why do I feel like this?
Everything is fine.
I'm healthy, breathing, grades are good, and my family is fine.
I don't know what it is.
Alone.
I applied all the correct changes into my life and it made a temporary happiness.
But God knows I needed to make those changes.
I think I'm tired of my same old routine. 
Wake up, school, work.
That's my week right there. 
Well, besides on Wednesdays. 
That's the only day thing are changed around. 
Becuase I actually have time to change things around.
I thought that I just needed to get out more with friends.
But when I go out and have fun for a day I want to stay home the next day to sleep.
I get socially tired.
But it doesn't stop me.
I just wish I had more people to hang out with.
What a shame.