Paranoid

Sitting here listening to a beat.
Something more than just vivid thoughts.
Consequences roaming but don't really matter.
I can't seem to find a solution.
But yet it still goes.
It'll catch up and I am pretty sure it will be consequential.
At the same time, everything is okay.
I'm struggling to find a real answer.
I am conflicted on what everyone else wants and what I want.
How can you be sure what will happen?
Paranoia is very much related to anxiety and honestly, I never knew I would its ugly side.
My love, that sits at home waiting for next moment that shares us both.
Diligently trying to mask this pain.
Sounding like a mission to beyond the limit.
I can't seem to let it give.
I know it won't cause a scene as long as I don't bleed.

Sad again

Keep your voice down, she doesn't like it.
She found her love in some place that caused her hell.
But to tell something more than a story.
She really doesn't understand how anything works right now.
Right now the days are going by to fast and it's her fault.
She's listening to music to calm the pain
Maybe a heat or two.
She wants him here and there's no way for that.
Creations that she writes can go far.
She doesn't try anymore.
Because she's sad.

Mind

I hate this conflict, I don't want them to go.
If he goes and something happens, it'll be my fault because I let them go.
"Everyone is a buzz kill."
He says with an irritated sigh.
He thinks that he is okay, but you are not.
I am watching over him like a child, no.
He needs to be careful with his decisions right now.

Love

I feel this time, I want to be with him
I know there is true love here, I don't want to let him go.
I want him to know I would give him the world.
I don't really know what life has in store
I just want to walk into the future with you, hand in hand.
I don't care what they have to say, I just want you to stay
Forever.

Thoughts

Tell me who you are and what you want.
I don't care what you have to say.
I am trying to end this endless process.
I know this is the end.
I'm trying to figure out who I am.
I just want to know what is best.
I don't have a lot of support from my family.
So, asking anyone else is a bad idea.
I'm helping myself.