There is a boy I know who has a beautiful soul. He is the far most outstanding person to have ever walk this dreaded Earth. But the unfortunate part is the universe broke him before I could get to him.
When this boy came into my life I didn't know what to expect, but something inside me had clicked when I saw his face. I knew somewhere inside me that my heart was going to start beating again. Though I didn't know what those feelings were set to be. Because my heart was damaged to the point that I didn't know what real love felt like. Then the words "I love you." That came from his lips, actually started the fire in my heart that I never knew I had. Like a match to a gas tank, in the wreckage, that's where my love began.
Time in his words has no change, but little does he know the world will soon reverse in his favor. I know deep inside of me that things will become better for him soon. For a boy with a tainted and broken soul, I will forever love him. I wish I had met him when he was younger because then I would have saved him some pain. I, of course, couldn't save him from the ignorance of others. But I tell you, I swear I would have tried. In his younger days, he has seen pain and things no one else should have seen. Pain that no one should ever feel, losses that no one at one time should go through. In these days though, all I can do is prove the love that I swore to him that I have. To prove that I will never leave him. I am never going to do anything to destroy the perfect love we have. I will care for his heart for the rest of my days. Past experiences and current epidemics have caused him to always feel something negative. I always try to make him feel better by proving to him that I am always here for him. He is never alone and that some of the things that he feels, I have felt the same.
I can say so much in words the feelings I have for him, but of course, I have forever to prove it to him. I sometimes get tongue-tied when all the words I say just repeat. But my boy knows my love is true. We have our times in which we disagree and bicker. I wouldn't have it any other way. I, myself, am learning how to comply with the person I love feelings and what to do. I, of course, am not perfect and do my best to help and follow by them. Sometimes I need help and more understanding of how to back off and see. I can admit sometimes I think too much and I know I overreact to small things. But that's just a piece of my damage from the past. It is getting better knowing I know he'll never leave me. I always tell my anxiety that and in doing so is like holding me when I am in a panic.
I have my scars on my heart, as does he and I will always put his feelings into consideration. I will never make him feel small and hurt in any way. He simply does not deserve that. He deserves love and everything in between. I wish nothing but positivity and peace to him all the time. Knowing his mind is always at war. I know the days where your mind and heart simply will not settle. It's agonizing and traumatizing. I always wish to be there with him when he has these days. To hold him and tell him everything will be okay. I can say that over and over, but having him in my arms in silence will just as well. I couldn't more lucky to have this boy as mine, even though sometimes he doesn't believe the words I say. I will forever be here to hold him as he cries. I have bled my heart out to him in his arms and I couldn't feel safer. He is my safe haven and the reason for my strength.
This boy that I speak of will forever own my heart and will continue to have my everything. I am strong for him and I want to be the reason that he smiles. He melts my heart when he turns his head and says I'm cute when I do something silly. He makes my chest warms by just looking at him. I never met such a beautiful soul in my existence and I will never take his perfection for granted. I believe that this boy has saved me from myself and has helped me find the best in myself. I am just so in love with him that I could do many things. He inspires me to be better and to be strong. All that I can pray is that I can do all the same for him.
