Sick

Not the same you feel
But the kind you think
Where every day feels like a shit show
But now it's your turn to bow
Putting your head down isn't nothing new
You should be good at it
Sitting in your own pain
Trying to find the reason
To everything going wrong
Trying to fix the wrongs
And mend the right
But who has the good mind
When you're sad all the time
Where everything is a blur and you want to make it right
I guess it's not the time
Someone in the clouds please tells me the time
The time where I won't feel the pain anymore
Sick in the brain
A never-ending game

Closure

Finding the answers to my own questions
But they're misleading
Hope that is misleading
But surely time will treat me
Trying again to look for another day
Without the pain or going insane
The normality I once had and I should have
But when the pain takes over
There is nowhere else to run
But to be hit by your own mistakes
Watching the chaos mix
In the clouds above is there is someone who loves
Please save me from myself

Falling down

When the wind flows it knocks me down
For my skin is paper and my mind is the pen
Here we are again, trying to escape
You changed the weather and it blew me away
But yet here is my mind

Ask again and again what you can do
But you bring the clouds
Here comes the wind
Mend the pain
Inconsideration is your game
But it's smoked out
Can you breathe on your own?
Or are you gone?

I don't want to feel pain
At the point where the world is turning numb
No return

Find a reason
Find a real friend

Scream

I don't have the control
Where did my head go?
I am so tired of being controlled
I want my choices back
I want my friends back
It's my fault
I go to be strong and they fell down
They lost all control
They want this even though my friends are trying to pierce
Ask me what's wrong again
When it's you causing it
Where are my friends?
Why am I feeling so damn small?
I am in my own hell
Where nothing seems to make sense
Save me, love,
I want to collapse; fall down
I am tired of this sickness

Them

I have come to the point where my space is small
When the smoke finally cleared and I can see now
The only reason why I am held up is because of the ones who picked me up
Now they're stuck
And I'm wrong
I feel small
Not like I have been there before
When the time comes faster I will feel better
Right now who are they?
Inconsiderate of my feelings
But when there is something wrong with them
I understand
But when there is something wrong with me
In one ear out the other
I am not trying to be in control
I just want to be understood
I just want to stop feeling so damn small